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i said it…

October 21, 2014


and so it was as it all happened in just the fashion that he said it would – and what a thrill it is to see it all come together when at once in the beginning it was just a vision – it’s all simply so beautiful and it goes all the way back to very long ago when it was said in romans 4:17 (esv) how “…God…gives life to the dead and calls into existence the things that do not exist.” – and indeed that is how it happens when our faith is unwavering and our conviction in our vision is with the clarity of the finest crystal – you see i was never before in life with a greater guiding vision as that of which came to me in a dream nearly one year ago – yet it did arrive and with it i became instantly affected in the way of gaining a most wonderfully indescribable new set of lenses in front of everything i’ve been given sight of in these past many months – and with these lenses i’ve seen it all in not only my mind’s eye as given by way of the holy spirit yet in the here&now of what it is that’s suddenly just appearing right in front of me – and when it happens as it has been with an ever increasing rate of frequency i cannot help but find myself laughing with a great sense of awe and a nearly thundering gusto as surely as i am laughing with the deepest feeling of grateful blessing in realizing God’s perfecting handiwork literally right as it’s happening – at times it’s nearly overwhelming as it’s all coming together unlike it ever has before – even further is the very heavy presence of an elaborate architecture at work seamlessly piecing together my very life in such a steadily unveiling design to where i know i’m literally walking my nearly every step as ordered by God himself – at the same time there’s an overriding and entirely innate understanding that it all is happening for my very best well-being – questions of even the slightest uncertainty in the heart about anything nearly disappear – and in place of them instead is an unending smile in my every greeting and a confidence in my every measure as if i’ve already been there and as if i’ve already done that if not the once then maybe even many times to the point of feeling i very well may be a master at it -

yes it definitely seems and sounds exceptionally detailed in my every description of what it is to say it and then see it arrive knowing it’s coming from faith and faith alone yet there couldn’t ever be any greater of a lesson learned than that of what it is to finally be running right at godspeed from one minute to the next – and that’s where i’m at – and i’m thankful – and i’m floored in the very best way now finding so many of the pieces arriving as well as so many of the spoken dreams coming together everything the same – just recently for the very first time i said something out loud to myself far greater and far grander than anything i’ve ever spoken of before – yet this time there was such a deep belief in those very words that i know beyond a shadow of any doubt that it was all indeed by the grace of God in that the players have now arrived and they’ve arrived with a smiling heart at that – what’s further even more wonderful is that it was for the greater collective benefit of us all – and to our benefit it certainly already is – the details in the way of the who and the what and the when and the why and so on from there truly do not even matter in the way of what it is i am hopefully sharing in all of these preceding words right up to this one – and they do not even matter because it was faith that led me there and it was faith that led me here in sharing what it is that happens when we have it and we keep it and we proclaim it in every minute where it seems so fitting – and as we do i am completely convinced his smile once again finds its way straight into that beautifully unending laughter and with him we arrive at the very same – and that’s how it all happens at godspeed – wishing you one in the very same with God’s every blessing ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

words are all we really ever hear…

October 15, 2014


when they first arrive out of thin air from the voice of one as coming to another and then often times right thereafter is when we actually hear what was said – and unfortunately these words far too often arrive scraped bleeding and even burning as coming from a soul that’s been hurt by the generations – yet that’s rarely how it’s ever understood by the one listening let alone the poor soul further trapping themselves as they ever so steadily keep breathing even more life into what they very wrongly believe and then put into their words – nonetheless that’s what it is and it’s entirely toxic and it’s entirely unsustainable let alone being light years away from anything encouraging nurturing or productive for anyone involved – and for the one effectively running their life sideways in their every relationship it’s this crippling internal defeat plated up from the ones coming before them that’s the very bane of their existence – in other words they are as they say their very own worst enemy – there’s a generational curse deep from within that was handed down to them from God only knows how long ago – yet there’s no need to cast any blame anyone’s way no matter how obvious and deserving it may seem as that’ll only ever lead to an even more perilous and painful life in a fashion i’ve felt once before and wouldn’t ever wish upon anyone – rather what needs to happen and the faster the better is exactly 2 things with the one being that of forgiving once and forever anyone and everyone ever having hurt you and instead giving up that pain once and for all to the neverending and truly unlimited love that is God – and the second thing that’ll finally begin to further free you of what it is that constantly is getting the far better of you is to recognize there are countless fellow souls in this world with a guiding light at the ready to lead you into discovering why you are where you are and how to move up, through and away from there, for good – and as you arrive in this amazingly liberating and ever-strengthening position you as well will surely find yourself transcending everything you have ever known in now truly living and thriving in this precious thing we call life – yet it is all up to you to raise your hand in accepting exactly where it is that you presently are and then simply asking for help -

after all asking for help is always the winning move – asking for help is how the strong gained even greater strength – asking for help is how God knows you are ready to truly receive his blessings in a way you have never experienced ever before – asking for help will even earn another one’s newly found respect for you – and asking for help will deliver you the very help you need from just the right teacher – and then there’s not asking for help – and not asking for help will only ever further paralyze your very heart in hailing the even more distancing winds of separation from those whom love you the most yet realize for their very well-being that they must do it from afar – not asking for help is bred of the one thing in life that ultimately is only ever destructive in every way and that is having fear – and fear will kill anything good in its way all the while taking you right down with the rest of it – and that’s just the way that it is which for some of us leaves only the one question and that question is do i truly understand what it is i am saying and how it is i am sounding and why others then respond to me in the way that they do? – and as you do you’ll completely realize it’s always all been up to you – wishing you the very best with God’s every blessing in everything that you ever do ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

and again i return…

October 4, 2014


in not only feeling yet in further witnessing from within every thread of who i am that God does indeed have my very best interest at heart with everything – i return in reminding myself of the presence and the promise of this far greater faith than that of what an otherwise seemingly skeptical world would rather say – and in that return i find myself celebrating as a party of one in all of the same fashion as i celebrate his loving light with all of you for the sole reason of knowing his smile’s now become even brighter – and his smile’s now become even brighter simply from my lifting myself up by way of the miracle of greater faith and then telling all about it from the top of the very biggest mountain i can find – and then i feel if not a measure then maybe many times more than that in feeling better than i did just minutes before when so much seemed so sideways and asunder as if the wheels just may end up coming completely off – and that’s what the one and only perfecting guidance of a far deeper faith does for me every single time just as i am entirely certain it will do for any and all of you as well – and what’s further so important in realizing from there is that at least for me this is an altogether new experience i find happening again and again in that the far greater promise of the deeper faith keeps delivering every single time i give in – and it’s the most beautiful giving in unlike anything i’ve ever known as this giving in isn’t what it sounds like in the way of giving up yet it truly is giving in as in giving into the faith that God and his love for and within us is completely unending as much as it’s completely unlimited and it always has been – and the only difference between me and any other fellow soul arriving at this very point in these very words feeling that i may be off on an adventure of the mind all of my own doing is simply that they have yet to see the light – they have yet to see the light in clearly never having simply decided they desire to truly see it let alone feel it and then thrive unlike ever before from there forward because of it – that’s the only separating difference – and what’s so wonderful from there is that God’s guiding light is there for us all at the ready in an instant just as soon as we turn to him in giving in to his love and giving up the distant and only ever unattainable fantasy that we can find a real and lasting happiness in this life in any other way – and when we do and as we are we find the most exceptionally elegant peace has then become the very foundation within us as our single most leading strength far more powerful than anything we can ever purchase, far more breathtaking than anywhere we can ever travel and for that matter far more meaningful than any other feeling we can ever know – and that is God – wishing you one in the same and God’s every blessing ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~ 

what i love about music…

September 27, 2014


to begin with is everything – and more or less it was quite so wonderfully said so many years ago in a favorite film titled almost famous – it was said at the very end of such a fascinating and entirely unpredictable ride for a teenager so uniquely coming of age as an emerging writer in the wildly entertaining scene of the traveling rock’n’roll life of a band verging on newly-found stardom in the early 1970s – the young fifteen year-old writer posed the rather simple question to the lead guitarist quite straight forwardly asking so russell what do you love about music and russell quickly and ever so peacefully said in reply to william to begin with everything – that’s how it went and that’s how it is for me as well in nearly every way and it simply always has – you see i came up in a time when to me radio was even greater than anything television or hollywood had to give regardless of just how good the giving was there in the 1970s – i imagine that’s what it is when there’s a rhythm inside of someone that feels like it’s been borne of the ages if not many a lifetime and for me that’s completely what it was and still is right to this very day – it’s an intrinsic rhythm from deep in the soul that has always had me listening for the next best thing that i’ve never heard before – it’s a rather thrilling place to be in in simply being completely open and at the ready to discover the high level and the sheer extent of brilliant composition out there in this wide and wonderful world of ours – and then entirely out of nowhere it happens and i find it again just as i did yesterday morning and altogether in an instant i get swept up and away in feeling like a kid in a candy store yet it’s far better than that -

and that’s exactly what happened when in some wonderful fashion as i was searching for material for one of my newest ventures i was also led across the path of pink floyd which further led me in discovering the upcoming release this november of their very first album in 20 years with a recording titled the endless river – and what’s even sweeter from there is that it’s a 4-sided double album that’ll surely play out to be yet another enduring classic – in finding this out it not only gave me a lift in looking forward to diving into the new music yet it also instantly sent me along on a highly gratifying trip right back to some of the fondest memories in my coming of age in being turned on to not only pink floyd yet so many other fantastic bands all thanks to my big brother jimmy – it also made me realize from there just how very excellent it was that my brother let me at the ripe old age of 11 take over the set of drums he had just gotten for himself, how cool it was for him to let me do that – and then i remembered the nearly surreal experience i had with one of my better friends greg in seeing pink floyd entirely captivate a stadium-wide audience for more than 3 hours in a driving nighttime rainstorm in orlando in 1987 – and then to cap it off i thought of how in 1994 at the very last minute so many odd pieces came together for me to see them in yet another stunning performance this time in tampa stadium – i can remember it all like it was just yesterday and what a grand feeling it is – from such an out of the clear blue experience in finding out something so simple as the news of a forthcoming record from a favorite band i was indeed and nonetheless given yet another truly lasting gift and that along with so much more is what i love about music – wishing you one in the same and God’s every blessing ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

the rebel is the optimist…

September 18, 2014


in the way that i see it as it came to me as it so often does straight out of thin air by way of the holy spirit – in a slightly different manner it was said by another far more enlightened than me and then it instantly hit as to just how exceptionally valid and vital it is in drawing a greater light to living and thriving within this far better reality – it’s the way of living life in where so much more of the good the better and the far greater from there ultimately and might i add far more consistently arrives in our life – after all we live in a world where so many of us errantly and so self-detrimentally leap into the lies of a life saddled by more or less bitching our way from one minute to the next – and when that’s the way we’ve been led to live within what it is we’ve been given by the ones that made us as well as the ones we’ve decided to surround ourselves with it’s a rather sad state of affairs – it’s a rather sad state of affairs in that so often so many of us are entirely unaware we’ve been effectively suffocating ourselves in just this fashion all along – so many of us have allowed ourselves to be sold a soul-stealing lie as constantly proliferated in the greater framework of how so much of the culture and indeed the media drives the draining conversation of our daily lives – it’s a deadly negative way of living that only breeds what it is we first allow into our minds as originally and constantly fueled by the hurt we’re holding onto and adding onto within our silent hearts as then completed in what we say as traveling across our lips – and when that’s what’s happening whatever it is we’re saying typically tends to be entirely counterproductive right out of the gate, and that means we’re getting nowhere fast at a record speed having only ourself to thank -

society’s been given many a fighter from one scene to the next and sometimes that’s been a very good thing yet well more often than not it’s the needless fight within the misguided fighter that amounts to the losing move without even taking a single step – and what i mean by that is that in the spirit of picking our battles that spirit itself has been steadily corrupted and ever so skillfully twisted into the concept that life is a struggle and life is unfair and if we’re ever going to get anywhere it’s always going to come with a fight – and that fight means i win when you lose and that’s the zero sum game of the greater share of history – after all the fight leads to the triumph and the triumph is winning the game in that set-up – however and nonetheless there is an easier way and it’s called the positive sum game – and that’s the one where we all win where in some fashion or another we all end up better off in the end – and that happens when we create a traveling infection all around us in a way that’s so invading we can’t help but capture spirits from the one to the next – and that means creating what’s been seen and proven not only from scientific pursuit yet far greater than that from what’s said from one happier soul to another about what it is that happens in our lives when everything we say and everything we do comes from the love within us – and when we’re in that groove and we’re on that track with the sole intent of simply making each decision in a way that’s going to create an outcome to the greater collective benefit to everyone involved we all win – it’s said as seen from studies that a simple smile from one person to the next travels at least 4 generations deep to the degree we are positively affecting people we will likely never even know – and far further from there when we’re leading our lives in the utmost of a steadily ascending faith in God as personally witnessed within by the wonderful ways of the everpresent holy spirit it’s nearly indescribable as to what it is that so wonderfully and often times with perfecting accuracy happens for us as literally given life by our very own spoken words – bad gets bad and as they say good begets good as we’ll always typically see if and once we only open our eyes as led by a finally freed heart – it’s that simple, it’s that good and there couldn’t ever be anything more vital in understanding by far and away best how to live this wonderful thing we call life – wishing you one in the same and God’s every blessing ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

driven to tears…

September 15, 2014


as the leading words into a conversation typically begins the tale of something rather sad in some fashion or another yet then again that’s not always the way – and today was just such a day and it couldn’t have arrived at any better of a time in our lives for me and my father – as many of you are well aware we’ve now been without my loving mother and dad’s wonderful wife for nearly 40 days right to the minute at this writing since that late tuesday august afternoon just last month – and it still hurts far more than i could’ve ever imagined and far more than anything i’ve said to anyone until these very words – my exceptional mother and dad’s best friend for 61 years was indeed a truly heartwarming presence in every way and while i literally can feel her within my heart in my every minute from one day to the next let it be said it hasn’t been the same – it just hasn’t been the same in not being able to call them up and hear them both on the phone together finishing one another’s sentences, it hasn’t been the same in not hearing mom’s beautifully loud and ever so happy laugh and it hasn’t been the same in not seeing that look in her eye that was the very essence of the words i love you every time we greeted one another as well as every time we went our separate ways – yet by the grace of God we know the only way through all of the grief and sorrow is indeed with having the faith that we are healing – and we know as well that we will rise above the pain as then arriving in a time when only laughter and love fill our hearts as we think of, remember and celebrate my wonderful mother’s life -

and then came a time just earlier today where something so perfect happened as our newly born journey seemed to be given quite a lift in leading us there – and there is a place i am imagining will be one somewhere down the road where almost everything will seem right again even if not ever quite the same – and what happened was simply as beautiful as anything i could’ve ever hoped for in not only my father joining us at our church for a further added shot of well-needed uplifting yet for what happened just after a few short minutes inside – so for setting the scene a bit more clearly it’s well worth understanding my father had been a christmas catholic for many many years in fact far too many than what’s worth counting until he and i just last month began again attending every saturday mass since my mother’s passing – as well it’s quite worth understanding that i’ve very happily been in rather lively services for these past 3 years with my wonderful girlfriend at a rather large christian non-denominational and to say the differences are many at times is very much of an understatement – so in requesting dad to join us as i did of both him and mom a year or so ago it wasn’t a surprise that they weren’t jumping at the invitation – it wasn’t out of any disdain and it wasn’t out of apathy and in fact i’m not really sure what it was as to why they wouldn’t come with us yet it was what it was and that’s that – so here we are in the here&now and for many good reasons from a to well beyond z i just knew my father would take a liking to the uniquely invigorating vitality and brimming vibrancy that lives within sunday service at our church – and to my sheer delight he told me just last evening he’d happily join us and he did -

so there we were arriving to a rather darkened chapel this morning full of many hundreds of parishoners all so joyously enraptured in the amazing songs of praise then happening – and let it be said this wonderful music at times literally thunders through our halls as coming from the gloriously passionate and supremely talented 9-piece band we’re so blessed with – and let it further be said this just wasn’t anything dad had ever been in the midst of before – yet there he was and there we all were and i was just so happy that he was with us – and then it happened – in a setting where traditional hymns aren’t typically the mainstay of the setlist so to speak one of them i wasn’t even familiar with began to ring out in such a wonderfully collective voice and it just felt good – and that’s when i heard one of the most beautiful things ever to come my way in hearing my father’s voice as he was now singing in an ever so soft and elegantly loving fashion that filled not only the air around me to the left yet it filled my heart and then my eyes with the most beautiful tears of happiness – dad’s voice created within me a loving peace that was entirely unexpected as i felt all in that one instant that my father like myself was also now finding an even further peace from within as given a greater helping hand in just being there together with me in a spirit and in a place i so very much love to be – and for that i am thankful and i am amazed in God’s wonderful way in doing what only he can ever do in such a perfecting grace – everything from thereafter was just as beautiful in a way that i’ll never forget this day for the rest of my life – so as with everything i say thank you God and i say thank you dad just as well – here’s to many more years of family and fellowship unlike we’ve ever had before, i love you – wishing you one in the same and God’s every blessing ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

used people…

September 11, 2014


fresh off the shelf as a mindset is one of the very best winning moves we can ever make in life – it seems to me there’re altogether far too many times when the past is doing everything it can to sabotage the here&now let alone giving way to any hope for an even brighter future – and that’s the way of the sensitive territiories of the mind that at times find an undeserving strength in leading our thoughts and words and indeed our very ways – i’d like to think i have complete freedom from ever giving in to these weaker moments and the damage that’s always created by them yet i don’t and maybe i never will – yet with every day i am ever so blessed with for the rest of my life i will do everything possible to be an even better human being than i was just the day before – a better man and a better partner, a better son and a better brother, a better nephew and a better uncle and always a better friend and above it all a far better child of God as leading the way in my every relationship, this is the commitment i am making to me myself and i – and if i have anything to do with the way it all turns out as i believe in all of my heart that i most certainly do then i am entirely destined for greater success in every way with the arrival of each new day – in reflecting i realize this lesson’s been given to me all throughout my life and in many ways i’ve heeded it rather well yet at times i do get completely in my own way and down i go, and yikes i am so sorry but what a dramatic lead i can tend to be in these lesser minutes – and to any and all that’ve ever been there and done that with me when you wish you hadn’t been please accept my sincerest apology and let me blame at least a little of it on the zeal of the irishman within me, with a further castigating light on the excitable italian and then let’s not forget an exacting german just to complete the effect – i mean come on in the way that i see it it’s likely a rather amazing feat that i even get along as well as i typically do with most of the people i ever meet -

anyway i guess what i’m simply trying to say is that there’s a wonderful gift within us all when we finally realize forgiving ourselves and then asking from the heart for the forgiveness of others delivers an immediate and revitalizing peace within us – further from there it is all about living from within this inner peace as to what it so beautifully is that makes this life always worth living and certainly always worth giving it our very best – wishing you one in the same with God’s every blessing ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~


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