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{rrf} and then I met an angel…

November 13, 2018

when at first seeing her all I could tell was everything to the contrary – after all what would anyone else feel in seeing some pretty little blonde casually stepping out of a rather bright&shiny showroom-worthy porsche as she’d just seemingly thoughtlessly parked right next to the front door of one of the town center’s destination-of-choice coffee cafes in a handicap space? – it simply wasn’t right – and I was kindly gonna let her know – kindly – and I did – yet by the love of God I thankfully left out the judgment and instead kindly went up to her and said you know they can write a really big ticket for that – 

and then in a mere instant and already with what I’d felt was the weight of the world on me in recent days&weeks I was stunned at what she said in reply – I was stunned to the very core as she ever so gracefully and heartbreakingly said to me “I have stage 4 lung cancer” – to which with every thread of love that’s ever been given to me I in turn immediately said to her “I am so sorry” and that I didn’t see any type of indication on the car as I’d walked all the way around it before heading in – and then just as quickly and incredibly kindly and likewise just as immediately she said that she didn’t have it displayed in leaving it in the glovebox by accident – and then still entirely in a state of completely distorted perspective from where I’d literally been just seconds before I asked for her forgiveness even though until that point I had no way of knowing otherwise to which she very graciously said she totally understood – 

in the several minutes that followed we spoke in greater detail as to how she’d only been given 3 months some 4 years ago and how she was nonetheless still very much winning the most unexpected fight of her life in simply staying alive – as she further shared with me that she’s a radiology specialist as well always having been an avid fitness devotee having always lived a very healthy life the poignancy of her reality absolutely overwhelmed me in feeling a far greater than ever before gratitude for not only my every blessing despite any temporarily less than desirable circumstance yet even more so in feeling and continuing to feel right to this very minute altogether overwhelmed in a way unlike ever before at the stunningly moving blessing in meeting this angel of a soul as this woman so very clearly is –

in further reflecting it seems that sometimes in life we quite unfortunately can tend to see with only a very narrow lens thereby in many ways effectively becoming deaf & blind to the far wider reality of the rest of the world and what it is they’re experiencing – and even worse at times it seems we can quite confoundingly and altogether far too intentionally turn a blind eye to others finding themselves truly in a bad kind of way – and that’s as much of a travesty as it’s likewise a tremendous blessing missed as it’s in not only knowing what others are going through even more so it’s in the understanding of firsthand as to what’s happening in another’s heart as they’re going through what they’re going through – and today as we met in initially what was the most oddly disconnecting of fashions an almost instantaneous discovery of a greater connecting compassion between 2 perfect strangers amazingly led to a feeling as if the whole wide world suddenly became just a little lighter and a little brighter thereby making everything just a little better – you’re a beautiful soul Tina Parker – wishing every one of you the very greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~


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{rrf} oh what a night…

June 26, 2018

it really was in the way of the greater spirit of a truly wonderful happiness that absolutely had the better of everyone there – at seemingly every turn a footloose and entirely fancy-free step led the way with everybody moving about and along from one smile to another all with the sound of sweet laughter filling the saturday evening air – and making it all even that much the better was that no one had ever said anything like this would one day happen a very long time into the far distant future seemingly a lifetime away from what we likely all had in and on our minds all the way back there in the land of nearly summer 1988 – 

such a wonderful surprise it all was with conversations abound and brimming with a rhythm and a rhyme unlike most any other I’d ever heard before – and keeping time as the incredibly tight trio they were the band likewise went about it all in a fashion as if it was only ever a matter of just press play – such a super good time of it I dare say was had by absolutely everybody there – no cliques – no hang ups – no he said she said bulls*** – indeed in further reflecting some 17 days later thirty years on what a truly grand time of it had by all so fortunate just in being there – 

and so it is that I say to anyone and everyone making all of the tremendous effort in so lovingly putting it all so perfectly together as well as every thread of sacrifice and expense made and invested by any and all just in getting there thank youthank you from every thread of my heart in so unexpectedly creating such a beautiful memory that’ll surely last for a lifetime – and as life leads us all along one very precious tick at a time may we always remember this truly magical evening that at one point none of us ever could’ve imagined even happening – wishing every one of you the very best at the greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

a letter to the heart…

March 10, 2018


artist…

beautiful…

comedienne…

delightful…

effervescent…

fascinating…

gentle…

hilarious…

irreverent… 

joker…

kook… 

lovely…

mine… 

nom nom…

one…

precious…

quality…

remarkable…

super…

talented…

uncommon…

victorious…

wonderful…

xciting…

yearning…

zingy zippy zowy…

and forever and always i’ll love you Chloe…

wishing every one of you every blessing at the greatest of godspeed
~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~


altruistic consideration of a deeply loving soul…

May 28, 2017

is a gift rarely ever resonating in the nearly blinding light that it really and truly deserves – yet ever so thankfully the greater good of this neverending blessing from literally within as well as from all around nonetheless finds its way into the lives of quite often far many more than simply the ones in front of them – 

it arrives in a smile of only the subtlest of degrees as much as it’s sometimes seen in the happiest of celebrating embraces – and then again and likely far more of the time than anyone ever realizes it’s happening when no one’s even looking as there’s nothing to be seen and not even the slightest whisper to be heard – 
yet the incredibly immeasurable wealth within the silent prayer being given as to seeking and then seeing all that is yet to even be for that of what is surely to be arriving is a love for others that defines the very meaning of life itself – 

as to the journey of the soul so endlessly giving in such a beautifully loving fashion it’s an amazing one – at times it’s a lonely one – and at times it’s a thankless one – and further from there it’s many times even a painful one – yet well above and far beyond any of the former lesser it’s absolutely always a blessed one – 

it’s such a fascinatingly blessed one as life in this lane is a lighted one – it’s a brilliantly lighted one truly unlike any other as ultimately there’s a far brighter inner peace inside of the one living and giving and altogether thriving in the complete love of knowing they’re living this wild and wonderful thing we all call life in the way it was truly intended to be – 

it’s a flying high with the eagle where the vision’s truly without an end – it’s a surety that everything’s already all alright – and it’s an understanding that perhaps can never really ever be written down in words – indeed it’s the rarefied soul with an unending love for the whole wide world – it’s a soul truly at one with giving life, with nurturing life, with protecting life and with completely loving life in all of the shapes and colors that it comes in – it’s very well the definition of a beautiful life – and in every way imaginable it’s her life – and her love – and her perfect soul – and for all of us so wonderfully fortunate in living in her greater loving light we’re surely forever blessed – 

thank you –
i love you – 
and godspeed to you in every way beautiful minnesotagirl – 

wishing every one of you God’s every blessing ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~


what a wonderful one of a kind…

January 10, 2017

lady she truly was –

i really only ever knew her in visiting the shop from time to time for something in the way of 20 years until quite unexpectedly i actually ended up having the pleasure of working with her for a day or 2 at a time for the better part of 2 years for what is now some several years ago – and in that time what i already very well knew in the beautifully sarcastic yet perfectly loving way in which she always treated Rena then became that much the better for me as well in that i now benefited in being in her delightful little world of very sharply-witted one-liners, laughter and happiness everything the same

what she did so brilliantly and likely better than almost anybody else in the whole wide world when you arrived at her shop was to make you feel as if you’d made your way over to your favorite aunt’s for a dinner that would surely finish up with your feeling that you couldn’t have paid the tidiest sum at the hoity toitiest of destinations and had any better or more heartwarming of a time of it than that of what it was in visiting with her for an hour or 2 –

in reflecting even further what i’ll forever be so exceptionally thankful for was the way in which she truly treated Rena like she was a beloved daughter – to see them in one another’s company was to see genuine harmony and a wonderfully spirited sense of contentment – it was a beautiful thing to see and something i’ll surely never ever forget as a smile in my heart’s there right this very minute as i write these very words feeling both incredibly sad at finding out of her unexpected passing as well as feeling even further so lowly in having just found out well more than a month after she left us –

in every way hers was indeed far too brief of a time in lighting the way to happiness in so many countless souls in the mere 64 years she was here yet what a tremendously immeasurable and endlessly beautiful impression she left with us all in that far too short of a time – and i for one and likely for a great many say thank you for the music that so uniquely was you Sandy Capatostayou were and forever will be a very brightly shining light in this good old weary and wonderful world of ours – godspeed to you and all of your loved ones and please tell my mother that I love her! –

wishing you all every blessing at the very greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~



reflecting in red…

November 22, 2016

on everything that’s so unexpectedly happened in such a truly incredible fashion in this past year in the american life is nothing short of a modern day miracle – indeed, it’s the modern miracle of our time as a nation steadily drifting away and into the greater depths of the sea of failed social engineering had literally found itself agonizing seven ways to sunday in all of the heavily false grandeur of the highly deceptive globalist ideal – 

and then I daresay in the very finest spirit of nearly everything that embodied what it was all the way back in 1776, our horse finally and ever so fiercely came racing in – our horse finally came racing in in the most unexpected of fashions when an individual of a most exceptional dynamic felt an overwhelming calling in standing up and fighting the good fight for the good and hurting people all across this once great and prosperous land of ours –

and fight he absolutely did – and take an unendingly ruthless and totally biased onslaught from the so-called mainstream media, he did – and stay true to his colors in saying it like he sees it, he did – and all along the way the silent revolution was given the voice it so desperately needed and so richly deserved – 

and then the day of days finally arrived on november 8th and ever so fatefully for the far left it all so beautifully went cock-up – and in the same wonderfully british spirit as nigel farage’s equally beautiful and totally anti-establishmentarian brexit victory, the very same happened here stateside to the greater salvation of us all – even for those still suffocating in the incredibly over-manufactured fear of this pathetically loathsome and mainly intellectually bankrupt so-called mainstream media of ours, salvation has indeed arrived

and in the end as it is now indeed a very brightly shining and altogether fantastically brilliant new beginning, there is hope – there is hope that a leader, an independent leader, and perhaps what’ll truly be the very greatest leader we’ve known in nearly half of a lifetime, will indeed actually do what he’s said he’ll set out in doing – afterall, when it really comes right down to it in dispassionately reflecting on the greater lot of it, so much of everything he’s already said simply made and makes rarely-heard good basic common sense – and that my fellow americans makes perfectly good sense to me –

wishing you all every blessing at the very greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~


a five-year funeral…

September 7, 2016

and finally walking away from being left behind after twenty years and all of everything that simply was and indeed wasn’t is perhaps the single hardest self-realization i’ve ever come to in this wild and wonderful thing we all call life – and in finally having done it, i’m steadily finding this newly found freedom is indeed incredibly liberating well beyond my wildest imagination in that all of the loving light of everything that ever was as well as everything that has yet to even come to be has now nearly perfectly come together in becoming one – 

and in ultimately becoming one, i’m further feeling as if every arresting thread of love that has ever found its way into my always swiftly beating heart is once again radiating out to the world on every single path the good Lord is leading me upon – 

and in this beautifully never-ending guiding light for the very first time, i truly have every feeling and faith that my greatest destiny is now entirely upon me – and for it all and with the very deepest of gratitude, i say thank you – wishing you all every blessing at the greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~