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take that s*** to the suburbs, burn that s*** down she said…

August 16, 2016

and as mindlessly said as it just was it all comes from their having been preyed upon and watered-down upon for so long now with the completely horrifying inner city plantation set-up of johnson’s highly deleterious and entirely racist great society scheme to the degree that the lesser and least educated in these otherwise shamelessly neglected and nearly altogether forgotten neighborhoods resort to the lesser and woefully mis-serving baser aspects of humanity –

johnson hoped and more or less knew they’d primarily keep to themselves and from there kill one another in disturbingly high numbers as well as fill the corridors of the soul-stealing entity that planned parenthood so clearly is, and that’s exactly what’s been happening for 50 years now – and the likes of jackson, sharpton, barry obama and so many other seemingly countless community organizers or aldermen like the fanciful thief up in milwaukee continue preying on their own with the coordinated help of our sickly twisted goody-gumshoe cabal of a scam mainstream media right there in lockstep with them keeping themselves high on power and control while nothing ever gets better and the good people suffer and then boil over from there – and what’s worse is that it’s all effectively being encouraged by our fantastically wonderful president and his shockingly pathetic lack of true leadership as he instead sums it all up in recently and very wrecklessly asking how would you feel?
and what’s further worse from there is that there’s seemingly no one other than a very limited minority of the minorities like James T Harris with the free-thinking wit as found in tandem with the ever so critically necessary courageous willingness to stand up and say it like it really is –

i remember these elitist-type twits in their pathetic clicks in every hallway of all of the schools i ever attended and while they were rather annoying back then they’re now very dangerous in the halls of the mainstream media and the dnc and whatever other backrooms they gather in where they plot and plan their deranged version and vision of the future of this once great land, that’s what’s happening and we absolutely must put an end to it at every turn

indeed, i dare say we’re at the very beginning of what must be an american spring in rising up and through and above all of those of the very worst already among us as in every way it’s high time for the new american revolution in getting back everything good that we ever once had – after all all of our kids of every race, color and creed and their very future are all counting on us –
wishing you all every blessing at the very greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~ 

whatever i have tried to do in life…

July 15, 2016

i have tried with all my heart to do it well; whatever i have devoted myself to, i have devoted myself to completely so said Charles Dickens so seemingly long ago yet now feeling so suddenly near and dear in everything i’ve ever come to understand – and with these very words the vision i was so graciously given as the very calling of a lifetime reappears in a far greater light steadily resonating all throughout me in everything that i am, and in every way i totally accept it –

i totally accept it in that all along as i’m seeing it there’s an underlying feeling of fascination steadily further feeding what i’m seeing, and in and of itself that is indeed an entirely delightful and ever so blessedly endless circle of life-giving surety as much as it’s also most certainly the very finest in dream-threading reality – 

after all as it is most likely far more of the time than that of what many’ll ever realize, the seeing leads to feeling as ultimately spearheaded in the believing even and especially of that which is yet to even appear in front of us – and as it is then so i am as the days of writing and reading as well as the teaching, guiding and leading all are lighting the way into the dawn of a new foundation setting forth speaking greater life into every soul i can find

and that’s the way that it is just as it was always intended to be and for it all i say thank you – wishing you all one in the same at the very greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

coming together kinda sorta and maybe not really…

May 9, 2016

yet it is what it is and it was what it was and what it was isn’t exactly all that clear yet then again I really feel it was, kinda – as to how it happened that’s no small wonder and in no way was it a coincidence as there absolutely is no such thing as a coincidence in the way that i’ve ever so fascinatingly come to comprehend it – yet the fact that it did happen as it did happen left me entirely in disbelief for all of a second or maybe as many as 30 and then it was all simply laughter, and then even more laughter thereafter – after all there we were one day away from the fifth year passed ever so poetically right at the very peak of a perfectly sun-setting scene dividing 2 entirely separate lives as well as 2 entirely different worlds – and finally and thankfully it’s all weller than well and it didn’t hurt any more as indeed a gift greater than any other i ever could’ve imagined let alone never could’ve paid for’s surely been delivered right on-time in the highest of clarity and with the very finest in life-defining resolution

and so it was on an otherwise rather pedestrian finish to another satisfying day as the glimmering shine of an ever-radiant spin told me there she is that’s her and i cannot believe she’s almost right in front of me – and such it was that only a few hundred feet kept us away from one another if not still very near as the natural pace of traffic eventually and rather quickly had its way and then it happened – 

in simple simplicity as everything else temporarily vanished it was now only a tale of the 2 mustangs, one of the past and one of the very here and now running right to the very top of the causeway in a flurry of a faster fashion running side-by-side if only for the few fleeting seconds yet running as one as it once so happily was – so there she was as strikingly pretty as ever gently smiling and seemingly oblivious to it all with the other and apparently fairly older fellow riding right there at her side and it didn’t make any sense and then it all made absolutely perfect sense, every thread of it and it all happened and it all passed in an instant and then everything was fine – 

and to think in reflecting that it all happened in barely under a mere 2000 days of living, learning, laughing and loving in every way that i never knew before all simply to get right here finally thriving in a newly-found destination called happiness is to see a soul as highly-blessed as their ever was in this or any other lifetime and for it all with a thankfulness far greater than any other i say thank you – wishing you one in the very same and God’s every blessing ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

the gift in being left…

April 7, 2016


has to be one of the very strangest set of words ever finding their way out of a heart that once could barely breathe yet they did and she did and it did in the way of an arriving gift i never could’ve imagined happening in just these past and rather fast five years, and without it i dare say i’d be absolutely lost – yet, forever to the greater good of a heart that’s finally ready, fear and uncertainty as they’d always been with a fiercely defining upperhand in my life have now entirely vanished and in their place a far greater strength and conviction as inherently and ever so finely written together as one have led me into a visionary invincibility in being what i was always intended to be since the very beginning as my wandering soul first found this truly wonderful life – indeed it’s an unimaginably unlimited space in where everything that ever once may’ve been is in fact all on the table yet again right alongside everything so fascinating that has yet to even be, in every way my very greatest days are decidely in front of me –

it wasn’t a gift in the suffocating pain of the seemingly unending tears nor was it the deafening silence to so many troubling questions that at the time surely seemed to only ever say that happiness never would have me as its friend ever again – and it wasn’t even every second of sorrow passing at such a fretfully agonizing pace as if there’d never be an end – no, not a one of these in and of themselves ever felt like anything in the way of a gift yet in reflecting on it all after a five year ride right back to the very beginning it finally came to me that with all of the pain in every tear and every second of all of the sadder sorrow there was an even greater ray of light steadily threading its way into my very soul at every turn – and it was in that every turn that ultimately came a far happier heart as then so poetically followed by a far more radiant mind – 

and so it is in the end of such a fascinating phase once so laden with anxiety that i now ever so gratefully find myself beginning again finally realizing the greatest gift of them all as it is in thriving with the completely invaluable wisdom in simply just being me – wishing you one in the very same and God’s every blessing ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

i remember when…

March 21, 2016

and it’s all like it was only yesterday and i can see and hear everyone laughing and having such a grand time of it just as we did seemingly countless times all across these many years – there we were the better part of an entire family of many lively and primarily irish personalities with not the every one of them necessarily always in agreement with the next one yet in looking back that was absolutely the imperative thread of what made it so exceptionally spirited so much of the time –

it all began in being completely captivated coming up through the better days of a rather fascinating childhood listening to so many riveting stories of these wonderful gatherings and get-togethers that at times sounded as if they’d never arrive at any kind of ending yet of course they always did – now to say the merrier one version of the family may’ve been from an earlier time to that of any more the recent would simply be altogether pointless as there’s no way of imagining any greater happiness, any deeper laughter nor any more resonating voices than that of what i’ve seen and lived through so joyously for myself firsthand, and out of it all i’m very much the better for it in every way –

to further say just how happy of an affair it truly was so often of the time is to very rightly say it was quite like celebrating with all of the very same spirit in the most wonderfully radiant fashion of old fezziwig so joyously leading all those so fortunate just in being at his as the happiest of all the christmastime parties in london, it was indeed merrymaking at its finest – and even if wasn’t always quite exactly like i’m now so joyfully remembering that it may have been, i’m everything as blessed everything the same and just as blessed i’ll surely always be – wishing you one in the very same with God’s every blessing ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

colder than the sault…

February 12, 2016

is what it feels like if i delay for more than a minute in reflecting on all of those i once called family that for the past five years now no longer have anything to say to me as if i just somehow vanished from ever even existing – it’s still almost entirely beyond me as to how i ever could’ve felt so deeply and so lovingly that i indeed had a second family that i most certainly felt would always be there for a lifetime, especially after the 20 years that once was – yet all in an instant in just that one fleeting minute in a heart i’d always felt so at once with out went the light – and from that very instant five years forward nothing’s ever been quite the same – nonetheless in the time since then a new and perfectly beautiful light so stunningly right in nearly every way has thankfully relit the stage of my greatest dream to the point that i can already feel it arriving, and for that and so much more i am eternally grateful – 

so how timely it was in that i recently heard a rather fascinating perspective that the tried and true act of forgiving’s not even necessary as truly understanding the what and the why of it all’s an automatic healing in and of itself – and in many ways i get it and everything the same i very well feel i already got it yet in reflecting on it all in just the past 24 hours, i found an even greater peace very deep within me even in the midst of strolling along in the amazingly freezing winds of an otherwise fine february morning in northern florida – how truly surreal it really was when all at once the rattling feel of the freeze sent me right back to so many years ago and the frigid feeling of the sault yet in the very same instant this newly found feeling of the liberating freedom of ease helped me finally understand it never was only about you – 

and i imagine this maybe all sounds just so simple in a matter of a mere few hundred words yet for me as the one living it let it be said in some ways it’s felt like several lifetimes in getting here – and further from there in the way i’m finally coming to comprehend it all as to the very likely neverending journey of the soul maybe it feels like several lifetimes in getting here because that’s precisely what it’s been in doing just that – either way an inner peace with so much of everything from the past has ultimately come to define exactly where i’m at minute after minute and from one day to the next and with it all a new and entirely amazing chapter of the story of me is finally underway, and i love it – wishing you all one in the very same and God’s every blessing ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

i just can’t write it like i did at the beginning…

January 30, 2016

 yet in many unexpected ways that’s turning out to be a very good thing – after all in life it’s all about an evolution in the way of a measure of where we were, where we’re now at and indeed very much where we’re headed – so when a day arrives in a life and you’re feeling more in love than you’d ever felt before and it’s still with the same wonderful girl of nearly 20 years something so exceptionally heartening sweeps over the soul, at least that’s how it felt right up until 959 that evening – and then it happened as the line went dead some 1731 days ago – 

and in all of that time so many aspects of a life that once was have all but disappeared yet all the while so many amazing blessings have newly threaded their way into a heart that seemed as if it’d never heal – and while that’s certainly a feeling far lovelier than any words can ever say there’s nonetheless still a room within it all where a window’s permanently lifted in a fashion with the sheerest of curtains softly flittering about as if from the gentle winds of a summer day in an appearingly perfect place just barely outside of it all and somewhat distant just the same – it’s a place where an entirely different world’s on stage yet the voices are faint and any images only ever come in the swiftest, the sweetest and at times the saddest of visions – 

as much as it now all makes seemingly perfect sense at the same time I fear it’ll forever be something I’ll never completely understand until we meet again perhaps only as souls if not hopefully far sooner – and for the sake of the gift of precious life i’ve now been given for a second if not indeed a third time and what I now know so absolutely in my heart of hearts it is that i’m to be giving with it, i finally feel that i can truly accept it all – no sad stories are needed and no welling tears need shedding as I’m finally realizing what it is to truly love unconditionally – and to think it’s only taken an undying world of love that’s been said and given and proven to me by so many for so long and so patiently is to see a man who is perhaps for the very first time genuinely thankful – wishing you one in the very same and God’s every blessing ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~


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