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{rrf} fighting off the blues…

November 29, 2019

when it’s all all too heavy from the highly-unexpected and truly tragic loss of 3 different friends to the memory of how it once so wonderfully was at the holidays to the neverending hope of somehow not feeling so impossibly flawed in the way of endeavoring to be everything you can possibly be in the eyes and heart of the love of your life collectively have a way of almost totally leveling one’s very spirit – particularly at this time of year –

it’s a feeling at times as if everything’s darkening all around you wherever you happen to be – as well it’s a feeling of being almost entirely invisible as everyone around you so mindlessly heads off this way that way and the other –

and then again as it’s such a strange and seemingly lesser and lesser of a caring world that we find ourselves in the blues unfortunately quite effectively usher in an added kick to the head that can literally leave us feeling almost completely paralyzed –

and then we decide to get out of bed – and then it’s a feeling of shorter breath and that strangest of sensations just behind the eyes – and then it’s the waterworks – and then ever so thankfully they’re over – and then it’s the eye drops – and then it’s the ibuprofen with a little hot tea in fighting off the headache that just suddenly decided to show up –

and then there’s the feeling of hope in the happiness in their eyes that I’ll be relatively expeditious in readying-up their special morning breakfast – and then I see the pictures of Jesus and my dear wonderful mother God rest her soul – and I can literally hear them ever so softly and everything as lovingly telling me you have so much to be thankful for and so much to give

and then I look around with a far wider perspective than what it was just several minutes ago in first waking up and I see that indeed I absolutely do

and I immediately start feeling better – and I feel happier – far happier – and then I literally breathe in newly-found life in speaking out loud my daily morning prayer as if it already all is and I feel even better than when I began with the first word of the prayer – and then I feel myself smiling and I feel even better than just seconds before – and then somehow I find something to laugh about and I feel even better this time instantly –

and then for the better part of the day I’m feeling relatively to maybe even really good – and then in the early evening with any luck in having any properly thankful mindset still left as I walk through that temporarily yet very lonely door I remind myself that God is indeed with me and that he always has been every step of the way even on the very bluest possible day –

wishing one and all the very greatest of godspeed and a very happy holiday season everything the same…

~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

{rrf} Henry Ford put me upto it…

June 14, 2019


bitches.

\VVV/

wishing every one of you the very greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~



{rrf} at the moment of rock’n’roll…

May 15, 2019

that fantastically fantastic feeling of total euphoria arrives in an instantaneous hit straight away of any other reality and right into a perfect fantasyland where it’s only ever everything you’ve ever wanted all in one precious second – it’s an invisibly giving gift of the soul from that of another we’re very likely to never even meet – it’s the indelibly vital thread of everything in the way of the neverending love within a life all at once totally taking over no matter the present feeling – indeed it’s an absolutely electrifying trip in every sense of the word –

 
the serenity in a song, the melody in the music and at times the stunningly flawless creativity in the composition all in one single simple piece of music so fastly finding its way right into the heart and so often of the time at just the very rightest of times to me is what I find to be the one and only truly universal love that was always intended to be the very foundation of the lighter loving story of humanity

 

and in an overwhelmingly far further connected society as we ever-increasingly find ourselves living within the greater reality of this theory of “music is love and love is life” very well seems to be more and more of what it really is all about – in a rather fanciful fashion it’s the far righter spirit of the now many decades-ago concept of “if it feels good do it” – and for very good measure without any of the entirely unintended aftermath as so intrinsically understood by anyone ever having been there or even by anyone ever having heard the stories from the ones that were (insert laughter here…lol) –

 

as to the front line of it all for me in seeing the very best there’s ever been in the one-and-only king of rock’n’roll in the fall of 1976 to the legendary Luciano Pavarotti in 1989 to the very best there’s progressively ever been in the tenth time in seeing the ever-so-highly-revered rush in 2015 music absolutely is my life – and if it’s doing for you anywhere even close to what it’s been doing for me in the nearly 200 concerts I’ve been so super fortunate in being at (and almost in as well as in being at a great many after oh the stories one can tell) then I say with all of the avidity of every single breath you’ve ever taken most definitely keep on listening to every single thing that’s lighting up your soul always counting your every blessing as one of the very most enlightened ones –

 
wishing every one of you every wonderful blessing at the very greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

{rrf} another middle finger…

December 18, 2018

to anyone and everyone with the simple decency of intrinsically understanding that a Christmas performance should never ever meet the scintillating dress of an outlandish vegas stripper – even more so it should very clearly never ever happen on an at-one-point relatively iconic show as this one long ago once was – yet it did – and it was quite obviously planned in being exactly what it was – and what a pointlessly-embarrassing travesty that truly is –

and there again even more so given the commanding talent of the singer, the heavy standing of the genuinely iconic song that was covered and then so super cool from there the massively added-plus in the way of the surprise guest gunslinger that was right there at her side –

saturday night live with Miley Cyrus covering happy xmas (war is over) with Sean Lennon as the obvious son of one of the greatest rock’n’roll legends there’s ever been in the way of his father John whose song it is – and Miley wears a super-shiny get-up that’s cut to the waist and spread the greater way to her shoulders thereby teasing the viewer with the potential reality of ever so provocatively flashing the twins during a Christmas number – ayfkm? – and likewise in the words of one of our greatest present-day comedians Sebastian Maniscalco “aren’t you embarrassed?” – and how about you Lorne Michaels as the “esteemed” producer of the show? – and how about you Stephen Burke as the president of nbcuniversal? – does any one of you have a single thread of the good Lord running through your veins or your greater conscience in serving the greater good of the greater many on the public’s airwaves at Christmastime no less? – and if you unfortunately couldn’t care less as it surely seems to be the matter then perhaps the best question yet is would it make your mother proud in so brazingly disgracing such a sacred time of the year as it is with Christmas? –

how sad of a state of affairs in seeing so many so very clearly having lost their way – nonetheless and with the everpresent faith of a child I for one say may the light of yet another beautiful Christmas miracle find each and every one of their souls –

wishing every one of you the very greatest of godspeed and the very merriest Christmas everything the same ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

 

{rrf} and then I met an angel…

November 13, 2018

when at first seeing her all I could tell was everything to the contrary – after all what would anyone else feel in seeing some pretty little blonde casually stepping out of a rather bright&shiny showroom-worthy porsche as she’d just seemingly thoughtlessly parked right next to the front door of one of the town center’s destination-of-choice coffee cafes in a handicap space? – it simply wasn’t right – and I was kindly gonna let her know – kindly – and I did – yet by the love of God I thankfully left out the judgment and instead kindly went up to her and said you know they can write a really big ticket for that – 

and then in a mere instant and already with what I’d felt was the weight of the world on me in recent days&weeks I was stunned at what she said in reply – I was stunned to the very core as she ever so gracefully and heartbreakingly said to me “I have stage 4 lung cancer” – to which with every thread of love that’s ever been given to me I in turn immediately said to her “I am so sorry” and that I didn’t see any type of indication on the car as I’d walked all the way around it before heading in – and then just as quickly and incredibly kindly and likewise just as immediately she said that she didn’t have it displayed in leaving it in the glovebox by accident – and then still entirely in a state of completely distorted perspective from where I’d literally been just seconds before I asked for her forgiveness even though until that point I had no way of knowing otherwise to which she very graciously said she totally understood – 

in the several minutes that followed we spoke in greater detail as to how she’d only been given 3 months some 4 years ago and how she was nonetheless still very much winning the most unexpected fight of her life in simply staying alive – as she further shared with me that she’s a radiology specialist as well always having been an avid fitness devotee having always lived a very healthy life the poignancy of her reality absolutely overwhelmed me in feeling a far greater than ever before gratitude for not only my every blessing despite any temporarily less than desirable circumstance yet even more so in feeling and continuing to feel right to this very minute altogether overwhelmed in a way unlike ever before at the stunningly moving blessing in meeting this angel of a soul as this woman so very clearly is –

in further reflecting it seems that sometimes in life we quite unfortunately can tend to see with only a very narrow lens thereby in many ways effectively becoming deaf & blind to the far wider reality of the rest of the world and what it is they’re experiencing – and even worse at times it seems we can quite confoundingly and altogether far too intentionally turn a blind eye to others finding themselves truly in a bad kind of way – and that’s as much of a travesty as it’s likewise a tremendous blessing missed as it’s in not only knowing what others are going through even more so it’s in the understanding of firsthand as to what’s happening in another’s heart as they’re going through what they’re going through – and today as we met in initially what was the most oddly disconnecting of fashions an almost instantaneous discovery of a greater connecting compassion between 2 perfect strangers amazingly led to a feeling as if the whole wide world suddenly became just a little lighter and a little brighter thereby making everything just a little better – you’re a beautiful soul Tina Parker – wishing every one of you the very greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~


{rrf} oh what a night…

June 26, 2018

it really was in the way of the greater spirit of a truly wonderful happiness that absolutely had the better of everyone there – at seemingly every turn a footloose and entirely fancy-free step led the way with everybody moving about and along from one smile to another all with the sound of sweet laughter filling the saturday evening air – and making it all even that much the better was that no one had ever said anything like this would one day happen a very long time into the far distant future seemingly a lifetime away from what we likely all had in and on our minds all the way back there in the land of nearly summer 1988 – 

such a wonderful surprise it all was with conversations abound and brimming with a rhythm and a rhyme unlike most any other I’d ever heard before – and keeping time as the incredibly tight trio they were the band likewise went about it all in a fashion as if it was only ever a matter of just press play – such a super good time of it I dare say was had by absolutely everybody there – no cliques – no hang ups – no he said she said bulls*** – indeed in further reflecting some 17 days later thirty years on what a truly grand time of it had by all so fortunate just in being there – 

and so it is that I say to anyone and everyone making all of the tremendous effort in so lovingly putting it all so perfectly together as well as every thread of sacrifice and expense made and invested by any and all just in getting there thank youthank you from every thread of my heart in so unexpectedly creating such a beautiful memory that’ll surely last for a lifetime – and as life leads us all along one very precious tick at a time may we always remember this truly magical evening that at one point none of us ever could’ve imagined even happening – wishing every one of you the very best at the greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~

a letter to the heart…

March 10, 2018


artist…

beautiful…

comedienne…

delightful…

effervescent…

fascinating…

gentle…

hilarious…

irreverent… 

joker…

kook… 

lovely…

mine… 

nom nom…

one…

precious…

quality…

remarkable…

super…

talented…

uncommon…

victorious…

wonderful…

xciting…

yearning…

zingy zippy zowy…

and forever and always i’ll love you Chloe…

wishing every one of you every blessing at the greatest of godspeed
~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~