what a wonderful one of a kind…
lady she truly was –
i really only ever knew her in visiting the shop from time to time for something in the way of 20 years until quite unexpectedly i actually ended up having the pleasure of working with her for a day or 2 at a time for the better part of 2 years for what is now some several years ago – and in that time what i already very well knew in the beautifully sarcastic yet perfectly loving way in which she always treated Rena then became that much the better for me as well in that i now benefited in being in her delightful little world of very sharply-witted one-liners, laughter and happiness everything the same –
what she did so brilliantly and likely better than almost anybody else in the whole wide world when you arrived at her shop was to make you feel as if you’d made your way over to your favorite aunt’s for a dinner that would surely finish up with your feeling that you couldn’t have paid the tidiest sum at the hoity toitiest of destinations and had any better or more heartwarming of a time of it than that of what it was in visiting with her for an hour or 2 –
in reflecting even further what i’ll forever be so exceptionally thankful for was the way in which she truly treated Rena like she was a beloved daughter – to see them in one another’s company was to see genuine harmony and a wonderfully spirited sense of contentment – it was a beautiful thing to see and something i’ll surely never ever forget as a smile in my heart’s there right this very minute as i write these very words feeling both incredibly sad at finding out of her unexpected passing as well as feeling even further so lowly in having just found out well more than a month after she left us –
in every way hers was indeed far too brief of a time in lighting the way to happiness in so many countless souls in the mere 64 years she was here yet what a tremendously immeasurable and endlessly beautiful impression she left with us all in that far too short of a time – and i for one and likely for a great many say thank you for the music that so uniquely was you Sandy Capatosta – you were and forever will be a very brightly shining light in this good old weary and wonderful world of ours – godspeed to you and all of your loved ones and please tell my mother that I love her! –
wishing you all every blessing at the very greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~
reflecting in red…
on everything that’s so unexpectedly happened in such a truly incredible fashion in this past year in the american life is nothing short of a modern day miracle – indeed, it’s the modern miracle of our time as a nation steadily drifting away and into the greater depths of the sea of failed social engineering had literally found itself agonizing seven ways to sunday in all of the heavily false grandeur of the highly deceptive globalist ideal –
and then I daresay in the very finest spirit of nearly everything that embodied what it was all the way back in 1776, our horse finally and ever so fiercely came racing in – our horse finally came racing in in the most unexpected of fashions when an individual of a most exceptional dynamic felt an overwhelming calling in standing up and fighting the good fight for the good and hurting people all across this once great and prosperous land of ours –
and fight he absolutely did – and take an unendingly ruthless and totally biased onslaught from the so-called mainstream media, he did – and stay true to his colors in saying it like he sees it, he did – and all along the way the silent revolution was given the voice it so desperately needed and so richly deserved –
and then the day of days finally arrived on november 8th and ever so fatefully for the far left it all so beautifully went cock-up – and in the same wonderfully british spirit as nigel farage’s equally beautiful and totally anti-establishmentarian brexit victory, the very same happened here stateside to the greater salvation of us all – even for those still suffocating in the incredibly over-manufactured fear of this pathetically loathsome and mainly intellectually bankrupt so-called mainstream media of ours, salvation has indeed arrived –
and in the end as it is now indeed a very brightly shining and altogether fantastically brilliant new beginning, there is hope – there is hope that a leader, an independent leader, and perhaps what’ll truly be the very greatest leader we’ve known in nearly half of a lifetime, will indeed actually do what he’s said he’ll set out in doing – afterall, when it really comes right down to it in dispassionately reflecting on the greater lot of it, so much of everything he’s already said simply made and makes rarely-heard good basic common sense – and that my fellow americans makes perfectly good sense to me –
wishing you all every blessing at the very greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~
a five-year funeral…
and finally walking away from being left behind after twenty years and all of everything that simply was and indeed wasn’t is perhaps the single hardest self-realization i’ve ever come to in this wild and wonderful thing we all call life – and in finally having done it, i’m steadily finding this newly found freedom is indeed incredibly liberating well beyond my wildest imagination in that all of the loving light of everything that ever was as well as everything that has yet to even come to be has now nearly perfectly come together in becoming one –
and in ultimately becoming one, i’m further feeling as if every arresting thread of love that has ever found its way into my always swiftly beating heart is once again radiating out to the world on every single path the good Lord is leading me upon –
and in this beautifully never-ending guiding light for the very first time, i truly have every feeling and faith that my greatest destiny is now entirely upon me – and for it all and with the very deepest of gratitude, i say thank you – wishing you all every blessing at the greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~
a modern divorce…
and everything fear and missing courage ever so painfully left behind in all of the blood and the tears of the years of what once seemed so very right, and then in just an instant it’s nothing, absolutely nothing, and then what happens? – what could possibly be next when it all suddenly appears as if there’s simply nothing left to see? – and when it’s all gone so sadly silent what are we left in hearing other than the incredibly lonely sound of a table so newly just for one? – and then completely overriding any of that, what in the world does any of it even mean? –
and right there and then we realize all we can ever do is cry and try and then let it all go and give it all over to God –
wishing you every blessing at the greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~
and then it happened…
as a day arrived just as nearly every other one in my life ever has in where i opened my eyes and saw so many of the possibilities and all to some relatively engaging degree or typically even greater than that, i was ready to take it all in with a smile and a rather swift kick just for good measure – and so it was yet again this very morning and then something happened – something altogether very different that i didn’t have any idea was about to happen began happening with a very well-timed word or two coming through in just the right fashion from two very dear friends that i dare say know me even better than what i may myself as all in an instant it lifted up and away as fleetingly as a gentle wind having rather quickly come and just as fastly having already gone –
and what a simply glorious and incredibly liberating feeling it is in finally being free of the painfully pressing guilt that five years on still had me rather paralyzed feeling that i wasn’t any more worthy than that of being left behind after 20 years together with the one i truly always felt would absolutely be the one for a lifetime and indeed well beyond that –
yet she gave in in apparently finally giving up as rather unfortunately she just wasn’t and it wasn’t what i thought it always was for these past 24 years as i’ve very thankfully come to realize in the way of a far greater peace finally and ever so lovingly resonating all around and within my heart once again –
and while i’ll always be immeasurably grateful for everything so amazing that she was and did and hoped for for and with me completely appreciating every minute of it even more so now that it’s all just a distant memory, i’ve nonetheless finally come to accept this day for the definitive entirety of what it is as even further i’m now finding myself totally embracing everything so newly undiscovered and still perfectly beautiful that lies in front of me simply waiting to be seen –
in the end it was what it was, it is what it is and God-willing everything ahead of me’ll be even better and brighter and greater than i’ve ever imagined it could possibly ever be, and for it all i emphatically say thank you – wishing you all every blessing at the greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~
take that s*** to the suburbs, burn that s*** down she said…
and as mindlessly said as it just was it all comes from their having been preyed upon and watered-down upon for so long now with the completely horrifying inner city plantation set-up of johnson’s highly deleterious and entirely racist great society scheme to the degree that the lesser and least educated in these otherwise shamelessly neglected and nearly altogether forgotten neighborhoods resort to the lesser and woefully mis-serving baser aspects of humanity –
johnson hoped and more or less knew they’d primarily keep to themselves and from there kill one another in disturbingly high numbers as well as fill the corridors of the soul-stealing entity that planned parenthood so clearly is, and that’s exactly what’s been happening for 50 years now – and the likes of jackson, sharpton, barry obama and so many other seemingly countless community organizers or aldermen like the fanciful thief up in milwaukee continue preying on their own with the coordinated help of our sickly twisted goody-gumshoe cabal of a scam mainstream media right there in lockstep with them keeping themselves high on power and control while nothing ever gets better and the good people suffer and then boil over from there – and what’s worse is that it’s all effectively being encouraged by our fantastically wonderful president and his shockingly pathetic lack of true leadership as he instead sums it all up in recently and very wrecklessly asking how would you feel? –
and what’s further worse from there is that there’s seemingly no one other than a very limited minority of the minorities like James T Harris with the free-thinking wit as found in tandem with the ever so critically necessary courageous willingness to stand up and say it like it really is –
i remember these elitist-type twits in their pathetic clicks in every hallway of all of the schools i ever attended and while they were rather annoying back then they’re now very dangerous in the halls of the mainstream media and the dnc and whatever other backrooms they gather in where they plot and plan their deranged version and vision of the future of this once great land, that’s what’s happening and we absolutely must put an end to it at every turn –
indeed, i dare say we’re at the very beginning of what must be an american spring in rising up and through and above all of those of the very worst already among us as in every way it’s high time for the new american revolution in getting back everything good that we ever once had – after all all of our kids of every race, color and creed and their very future are all counting on us –
wishing you all every blessing at the very greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~
whatever i have tried to do in life…
i have tried with all my heart to do it well; whatever i have devoted myself to, i have devoted myself to completely so said Charles Dickens so seemingly long ago yet now feeling so suddenly near and dear in everything i’ve ever come to understand – and with these very words the vision i was so graciously given as the very calling of a lifetime reappears in a far greater light steadily resonating all throughout me in everything that i am, and in every way i totally accept it –
i totally accept it in that all along as i’m seeing it there’s an underlying feeling of fascination steadily further feeding what i’m seeing, and in and of itself that is indeed an entirely delightful and ever so blessedly endless circle of life-giving surety as much as it’s also most certainly the very finest in dream-threading reality –
after all as it is most likely far more of the time than that of what many’ll ever realize, the seeing leads to feeling as ultimately spearheaded in the believing even and especially of that which is yet to even appear in front of us – and as it is then so i am as the days of writing and reading as well as the teaching, guiding and leading all are lighting the way into the dawn of a new foundation setting forth speaking greater life into every soul i can find –
and that’s the way that it is just as it was always intended to be and for it all i say thank you – wishing you all one in the same at the very greatest of godspeed ~rettingerrockfiles/RRF~
